MewMus

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woob
@woob

forget star signs, what naive young vision of your future life did you abandon to become who you are today



pnictogen-wing
@pnictogen-wing

there's a great long list. we wanted to be a whole string of things in childhood. at one point we wanted to be a composer, because we'd read books about composers. we wanted to be a plumber for a time because we liked the shapes of pipe fittings.


invis
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xyzzy
@xyzzy

i wanted to write and illustrate children’s books :)

i’m gonna be honest, it’s still not entirely off the table


roxie
@roxie

when i was a kid, i was strongly obsessed with computers. to be fair, it was the 90s; computers were really cool back then! but it was definitely a big autistic hyperfixation, maybe even my first one. like before pokemon, even! wow!

anyway, adults at the time were all the time telling me "when you grow up, you can be an IT guy! a computer tech! a programmer or something!" and i would nod enthusiastically and say "yeah! that sounds great!" and, eventually, i did end up walking that path. well, not quite programming, not smart enough for anything more than html+css, but certainly computer repair, IT technician type stuff. a+ cert, windows client/server, a bit of CCENT training. and over the course of that training, i discovered something about myself. something rather foundational, in point of fact. something that i wish i had discovered sooner.

i fucking hate computers.

also i'm transgender but you know thats not quite as relevant to the narrative

i wound up gainfully employed in the field, but i did abandon a naive young vision of my future: the vision that computers were a source of fun and joy and using them all day would be my ideal. 🙃


invis
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MewMus
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I narrowly avoided the above by realizing in my late teens that computers where a hobby for me and not a career. But at that time I also wanted to be a wildlife photographer and I even made it pretty far down that route, although for a lot of reasons it fell through (no interest in being a biologist really didn't help here)

The biggest gut wrenching naive vision I had and held onto for far too long was that "I could make everyone happy" and that vision nearly killed me enough times that I've painfully let it go to focus on who I am and what I can do

My earliest dreams for the future where to become a fairy, unicorn or other magical creature. I had abandoned that part of me for a very long time, but I've honestly reclaimed it a fair bit in recent years, because kid me was onto something



I've been experimenting with Krita again because I saw posts that it was finally going to have one of my deal breaker missing features (gap closing for fill and magic wand)

But I've since found out that this is only in the beta version which I can't be bothered to download atm (it'll be in full release soon enough I'm sure) but I've been playing around with it anyways

The last two artworks I've made where drawn start to finish in it. Honestly I've had a pretty good time and I'm excited by the prospect of being able to switch away from CSP (something I wanted to do for a lot of reasons, but CSP is very good software)

I'll keep testing as I'm sure a lot of my pain points are still there, but if I can or can't switch I'll likely still do a writeup on the differences between software/pros and cons of each